I'm your self- fufilling porno queen
2002-03-18 / 12:28 p.m.
Well Spring Break is over and I got absolutely nothing done! Not a fucking thing!!!! Oh well though... my apartment is still a mess, I'm still behind in Math, and I have yet to change any of my identifications! Oh fucking well though. I had a break. I got to read some of my book and god knows it's been five billion years since I've actually read something other than some crappy fucking magazine. I should be in the library doing my Information Literacy final that is due on Friday but I decided to run to the computer lab instead. Go figure. I really need to stop using the fucking computer so much. It is really becoming a problem.
I know I'm crazy and all but Mike and I were talking today about how going to jail would be a vacation. I was saying how maybe I should do something wrong and get sent there for a year or so. I live in Minnesota so the prisons (especially the women's) are some of the best in the Nation. They are quite progressive and they actually try to teach prisoners instead of making them eat rotten bologna like they do in the County Jails in Arizona!
Anyways I was saying how I'd like to just be locked in some room for like 2 years to be bored! I really miss being bored, you know? I want to just lay on my bed and read and read all day long! Maybe just stare at the ceiling. It would suck because I wouldn't be able to smoke pot (but I really need to give that up or at least cut down because I really have a problem with it. It's like I quit smoking cigarettes and just starting smoking tons of pot! Whoever says pot isn't addictive is WRONG! My husband pukes if he goes without it and my mother freaks out!)
Whoa talk about a tangent there huh?
My sister has this girlfriend she met on the internet, right? Well my grandma just started using a computer and we all chat on MSN instant messager. My grandma started chatting with my sister's girlfriend ,Carla, and had no idea that she was more than Tangy's friend. So my mom is talking to my grammy on the phone and tells her who Carla really is. My grandma was like "Tangy is not like that!" (Probably thinking she can't be because she has kids and stuff) My mom said "Tangy is bisexual!" So my grandma is all wierded out by Carla now. My sister is freaking out and Carla thinks my grandma hates her. The thing about my grandma is she doesn't judge people. She's also very innocent it is funny sometimes. I feel like she is just a little girl the way she talk and what she knows. It's amazing how we are becoming so much more intelligent then our ancestors. My sister kept saying "I thought she knew, it was so obvious!" I really don't think my grandma cares. She probably just got surprised and is embarrased. I mean she never got to experience the joy of girl-love (haha! how corny!) so hows she supposed to react?
Hey, speaking of girl-love (HA!) I made this stupid bet with Mike and I lost! The bet was that he couldn't get up with me early in the morning when I had to get up for work. Since I lost I have to find some girl to have a 3some with. I have 2 years to do it though. What a stupid bet, huh? I should have known he'd walk on water to get that!
Stupid boys. Not that the idea is unnapealing because I'm a total voyuer. We did it once before and it was fun but 3some's really cause jealousy. I dont' recommend it if you're the jealous type. If you are a perv though I totally recommend it. I just don't think you should EVER do it just because your guy wants it! "Don't mimic out his every fucking fantasy-yeah-yeah." I figure that maybe now I can get him to allow another boy thought too! (Now that's an intriguing 3some huh?)
God I'm sorry I just totally went off there! I'd really be interested in hearing other girl's experiences with threesomes. Not the details and shit! Just the feelings and opinions they have about it. It's such a touchy subject with a lot of girls. My friend is all about them and I wish I could be like her. I think it's only really difficult if you have a strong emotional attachment to one of the people. I mean if I was single.... shit I'd be fine with it! I'd love it in fact! It's just that this is my fucking husband and as perverted as I am and voyerstic as I am really doesn't mean shit. I'm sick of worrying "am I the most important thing to him?" Who gives a shit because I really just need to be the most important thing to my fucking self. Fuck everyone else. I can't wait until I'm an old crone locked up in my house with my cats.